Hey everyone,
I hope everyone is well and had a great weekend. My best wishes for the week ahead to you all!
Only to add things for my disastrous last week, yesterday Shah Rukh Khan did not win the best actor award at the FilmFare awards. I am sure you must have seen my post from yesterday regarding it. I feel sad when someone gives the best quality and best commercial performance that year and gets snubbed. I feel sad at that but hey, I know SRK is a person that is beyond awards now, his presence in films is enough to make me and others happy!
I still see no improvement in my personal life and now maybe, it is a mere acceptance of what is happening is creating a wall around the problem. I am not thinking about it unless I touch the bottom of my soul. I know that atleast, once in a day I touch the bottom of my soul and all that pain cames rushing back. It is upto me how long I allow it to consume me and how much it does consume me. It is like as if I am getting in depression and getting out of depression. I am depressed, I don't know if I always have been depressed in my life.
I say that I don't know if I always have been depressed in my life, for many reasons. My childhood was never easy and neither was it colourful. However, there were moments and even months when I had forgotten that my life was black and white, and that my life did have colours in them too. I want those colours back, maybe my constant return back to this blog is the fact that I know I feel those colours for a few minutes while I am writing.
I know that writing 'Paralysed in Evil' is actually bad for me, writing about a character who I know from within, I know how dark his world is...I know how happy he is and how sad he is. I know if he is depressed or not. However, what difference is in my life? When I write that novel it is black and white and when I come back to reality...it is black and white...my both worlds at the moment is mostly consumed with the colours of black and white.
Thank you for reading and I will write again tomorrow!
Take care and lots of love,
Rahul N. Singh
Copyright © Chronicles of a Creative Writer. 2008-2009 Rahul N. Singh. All Rights Reserved.
Monday, March 2, 2009
Sunday, March 1, 2009
FilmFare is definitely NOT FilmFAIR!
Hi everyone,
After last year, seeing Shah Rukh Khan win the best actor award for ChakDe! India...I thought Filmfare was gaining back the credibility that they lost a few years ago by giving the best actor award to Hrithik Roshan for Dhoom 2 and ignoring SRKs Kabhi Alvida Na Kehna and Don – The Chase Begins.
This year, I was lucky enough to watch Jodhaa Akbar, Rab Ne Bana Di Jodi and Ghajini. All three films had exceptional performances at the very least. Respectively, Hrithik Roshan for Jodhaa Akbar, Shah Rukh Khan for Rab Ne Bana Di Jodi and Aamir Khan for Ghajini. Now, out of these three performances, Hrithik wins the Best Actor award for Jodhaa Akbar...but was he good enough or even better than the other two actors?
Jodhaa Akbar won the majority of the awards but definitely was no where near being worthy of it. I found Jodhaa Akbar to be a great movie to fall asleep to. A film that would definitely be good for treating insomnia. Hrithik's performance was average. In some scenes, he was brilliant and showed us why he is one of the biggest superstars in the industry. However, in several scenes I could see an over-acting performance. There was scenes where he lacked intensity and it was no where near a top performance that was even credible to be nominated. However, if Akshay Kumar for Singh is Kinng can be nominated then Hrithik for Jodhaa Akbar definitely deserves to be nominated.
Rab Ne Bana Di Jodi, the biggest grossing film overseas and a blockbuster in India. Which clearly makes this film...an all-time blockbuster. Shah Rukh Khan, who played the lead in this film gave one of the best performances not only of his career but one of the best ever performances given by any actor in the Hindi Film Industry. Rab Ne Bana Di Jodi, was an interesting film, a film which spoke of simplicity and a story that only true romantics would appreciate. Shah Rukh Khan excelled in every scene, whether he played the simpleton Suri or the over the top romantic Raj. He swapped from each character easily but still making us aware that he is Suri. He could have been Raj, his alter-ego but his eyes would speak like Suri. This performance could not be repeated by anyone else, only Shah Rukh Khan could do such a role and give justice. He certainly proved to be India's top actor and also the person that deserved the award by miles.
Ghajini, the biggest grossing film in India today and rightly so, Aamir Khan not only gave a good performance in this remake from the Tamil movie of the same name, but he cleverly marketed the film to a new level. You could even say he used Shah Rukh Khan to sell his film because he spoke more of Shah Rukh Khan than he did of his own film, Ghajini. Coming to the performance, Aamir repeated what many actors did before, to play a man that is destroyed because his love has been killed. He had acted excellently in some scenes, for example when he looks at the sight of his girlfriend, who is being britually murdered by the villain. His expressions in that one scene was brilliant. However, in the rest of the scenes, he gave a good performance than kept the audience engaged in the film. However, I would admit that Aamir deserved to be nominated but he did not deserve the award for a performance that was done by his peers before. Note down, Darr for Shah Rukh Khan.
My other concern is why is Aamir Khan even nominated for any Indian award show? Everyone knows that he does not accept awards so why even nominate him? If he won, would you give the award to a man that doesn't respect the awards and calls them flawed? It is stupid and silly, only nominate those people that respect awards from everywhere. If Aamir only prefers the Oscars, then let him keep running for them, if he only goes to the Oscars then frankly, he doesn't deserve any award from any award ceremonies.
I can now say that this year, yet again, FilmFare loses its credibility. Jodhaa Akbar did not deserve most of the awards and it certainly sounds like the jury suffered with short-term memory loss and forget about two performances that were clearly better than Hrithik's for Jodhaa Akbar. No matter what people say or think, or what the Industry says or thinks, or what critics say or think...Shah Rukh Khan is the deserving person for his perfect performance for Rab Ne Bana Di Jodi. The bottom line is...FilmFare is definitely not FilmFAIR!
I hope everyone is fine and had a good weekend. Write to you again tomorrow!
Lots of love,
Rahul N. Singh
Copyright © Chronicles of a Creative Writer. 2008-2009 Rahul N. Singh. All Rights Reserved.
After last year, seeing Shah Rukh Khan win the best actor award for ChakDe! India...I thought Filmfare was gaining back the credibility that they lost a few years ago by giving the best actor award to Hrithik Roshan for Dhoom 2 and ignoring SRKs Kabhi Alvida Na Kehna and Don – The Chase Begins.
This year, I was lucky enough to watch Jodhaa Akbar, Rab Ne Bana Di Jodi and Ghajini. All three films had exceptional performances at the very least. Respectively, Hrithik Roshan for Jodhaa Akbar, Shah Rukh Khan for Rab Ne Bana Di Jodi and Aamir Khan for Ghajini. Now, out of these three performances, Hrithik wins the Best Actor award for Jodhaa Akbar...but was he good enough or even better than the other two actors?
Jodhaa Akbar won the majority of the awards but definitely was no where near being worthy of it. I found Jodhaa Akbar to be a great movie to fall asleep to. A film that would definitely be good for treating insomnia. Hrithik's performance was average. In some scenes, he was brilliant and showed us why he is one of the biggest superstars in the industry. However, in several scenes I could see an over-acting performance. There was scenes where he lacked intensity and it was no where near a top performance that was even credible to be nominated. However, if Akshay Kumar for Singh is Kinng can be nominated then Hrithik for Jodhaa Akbar definitely deserves to be nominated.
Rab Ne Bana Di Jodi, the biggest grossing film overseas and a blockbuster in India. Which clearly makes this film...an all-time blockbuster. Shah Rukh Khan, who played the lead in this film gave one of the best performances not only of his career but one of the best ever performances given by any actor in the Hindi Film Industry. Rab Ne Bana Di Jodi, was an interesting film, a film which spoke of simplicity and a story that only true romantics would appreciate. Shah Rukh Khan excelled in every scene, whether he played the simpleton Suri or the over the top romantic Raj. He swapped from each character easily but still making us aware that he is Suri. He could have been Raj, his alter-ego but his eyes would speak like Suri. This performance could not be repeated by anyone else, only Shah Rukh Khan could do such a role and give justice. He certainly proved to be India's top actor and also the person that deserved the award by miles.
Ghajini, the biggest grossing film in India today and rightly so, Aamir Khan not only gave a good performance in this remake from the Tamil movie of the same name, but he cleverly marketed the film to a new level. You could even say he used Shah Rukh Khan to sell his film because he spoke more of Shah Rukh Khan than he did of his own film, Ghajini. Coming to the performance, Aamir repeated what many actors did before, to play a man that is destroyed because his love has been killed. He had acted excellently in some scenes, for example when he looks at the sight of his girlfriend, who is being britually murdered by the villain. His expressions in that one scene was brilliant. However, in the rest of the scenes, he gave a good performance than kept the audience engaged in the film. However, I would admit that Aamir deserved to be nominated but he did not deserve the award for a performance that was done by his peers before. Note down, Darr for Shah Rukh Khan.
My other concern is why is Aamir Khan even nominated for any Indian award show? Everyone knows that he does not accept awards so why even nominate him? If he won, would you give the award to a man that doesn't respect the awards and calls them flawed? It is stupid and silly, only nominate those people that respect awards from everywhere. If Aamir only prefers the Oscars, then let him keep running for them, if he only goes to the Oscars then frankly, he doesn't deserve any award from any award ceremonies.
I can now say that this year, yet again, FilmFare loses its credibility. Jodhaa Akbar did not deserve most of the awards and it certainly sounds like the jury suffered with short-term memory loss and forget about two performances that were clearly better than Hrithik's for Jodhaa Akbar. No matter what people say or think, or what the Industry says or thinks, or what critics say or think...Shah Rukh Khan is the deserving person for his perfect performance for Rab Ne Bana Di Jodi. The bottom line is...FilmFare is definitely not FilmFAIR!
I hope everyone is fine and had a good weekend. Write to you again tomorrow!
Lots of love,
Rahul N. Singh
Copyright © Chronicles of a Creative Writer. 2008-2009 Rahul N. Singh. All Rights Reserved.
Saturday, February 28, 2009
The pain cannot be kept back...
Hey everyone,
I hope everyone is well and I am back again writing to you!
Is the life we see ahead of us...something that we expected? The future that we expect, is it because of our actions and thoughts of the present? It is a question that will never be answered in words but only our life will give those answers.
I am still in pain from the last few days, trying to think of why these things happen...but is it something that is meant to happen to me? As much as I run forward, I feel the pain hit me just as hard. I find myself falling quicker than before.
I believe a lot that God will make things better but sometimes I wonder when it will be all better. But then who am I to ask? I can only accept what is happening and I can keep reminding myself that.
The future is not in my hands but the future lies in what God wants at the end of the day. If I am to do anything and this is to try and forget my pain by working on my blog, my novel and trying to get an agent. This scares me as I know the pain will come back to me and even I know, the pain will only go when everything is justified.
Take care and lots of love,
Rahul N. Singh
Copyright © Chronicles of a Creative Writer. 2008-2009 Rahul N. Singh. All Rights Reserved.
I hope everyone is well and I am back again writing to you!
Is the life we see ahead of us...something that we expected? The future that we expect, is it because of our actions and thoughts of the present? It is a question that will never be answered in words but only our life will give those answers.
I am still in pain from the last few days, trying to think of why these things happen...but is it something that is meant to happen to me? As much as I run forward, I feel the pain hit me just as hard. I find myself falling quicker than before.
I believe a lot that God will make things better but sometimes I wonder when it will be all better. But then who am I to ask? I can only accept what is happening and I can keep reminding myself that.
The future is not in my hands but the future lies in what God wants at the end of the day. If I am to do anything and this is to try and forget my pain by working on my blog, my novel and trying to get an agent. This scares me as I know the pain will come back to me and even I know, the pain will only go when everything is justified.
Take care and lots of love,
Rahul N. Singh
Copyright © Chronicles of a Creative Writer. 2008-2009 Rahul N. Singh. All Rights Reserved.
Friday, February 27, 2009
Bonds of the energy of life...broken!
Hi everyone,
Hope everyone is well and are having a good day. Yet again, another early post but I have a busy day ahead.
Confidence is something that is falling everyday with me. Due to the past few days, the words that have been said to me have really brought me down, in terms of my confidence. Everytime I think about that problem that has caused a wall to surround me, it depresses me even further and maybe I am not sure where I will be in the next few weeks.
I say that I don't know where I will be in the next few weeks but I know I will be here writing to you guys, going to university lectures and classes, doing my radio show hopefully, writing my novel and getting somewhere. However, on the personal front, I see dark clouds.
These dark clouds consume my mind at first, they darken whatever happiness may reside in the mind, it creates the foundation of depression. Suddenly, out of nowhere the dark clouds will absorb the feelings of joy and happiness in my heart, now the foundation of depression has built it's house, which has the most strongest security. To get out of this depression is difficult. Soon after, if nothing is done, these dark clouds will darken the very bright light that resides in the soul. The soul becomes black and hollow, the energy of life leaves the soul just like smoke from a incense stick...however it is not a beautiful wooden fragrance, there is no fragrance. It is just nothing. The dark clouds of depression have now created a huge wall around the house making it near to impossible to break down...now the depression will be secure in my life and only tears will roll down these cheeks but for no apparent reason. They will just flow and flow and flow...all because one person broke every single bond of the energy of life within me.
Lots of love and take care...I will write again tomorrow...
Rahul N. Singh
Copyright © Chronicles of a Creative Writer. 2008 Rahul N. Singh. All Rights Reserved.
Hope everyone is well and are having a good day. Yet again, another early post but I have a busy day ahead.
Confidence is something that is falling everyday with me. Due to the past few days, the words that have been said to me have really brought me down, in terms of my confidence. Everytime I think about that problem that has caused a wall to surround me, it depresses me even further and maybe I am not sure where I will be in the next few weeks.
I say that I don't know where I will be in the next few weeks but I know I will be here writing to you guys, going to university lectures and classes, doing my radio show hopefully, writing my novel and getting somewhere. However, on the personal front, I see dark clouds.
These dark clouds consume my mind at first, they darken whatever happiness may reside in the mind, it creates the foundation of depression. Suddenly, out of nowhere the dark clouds will absorb the feelings of joy and happiness in my heart, now the foundation of depression has built it's house, which has the most strongest security. To get out of this depression is difficult. Soon after, if nothing is done, these dark clouds will darken the very bright light that resides in the soul. The soul becomes black and hollow, the energy of life leaves the soul just like smoke from a incense stick...however it is not a beautiful wooden fragrance, there is no fragrance. It is just nothing. The dark clouds of depression have now created a huge wall around the house making it near to impossible to break down...now the depression will be secure in my life and only tears will roll down these cheeks but for no apparent reason. They will just flow and flow and flow...all because one person broke every single bond of the energy of life within me.
Lots of love and take care...I will write again tomorrow...
Rahul N. Singh
Copyright © Chronicles of a Creative Writer. 2008 Rahul N. Singh. All Rights Reserved.
Thursday, February 26, 2009
I am dead to you!
Hey everyone,
Hope you are all well and yes, I know this post is up a little early but I am sure you will appreciate that.
I do not really open up much but I can say something that I am deeply hurt after some events yesterday. After reading some words (not on the blog) and realising what they meant, caused me distress, pain, discomfort and anger. For the first time, I had wished that I had the ability to hate someone.
I can understand now that it is so easy to fall into the trap of hatred. To gather up all that energy to hate someone, it suddenly attacks you and consumes your mind that it is the right way. I had so many questions and answers to why to hate this person was right. But suddenly, I thought you know what...hatred is nothing, pity is worth much more. I pity that person for hurting me because yes, I may be able to forgive, but to look at that person in the eye again and even mention a word to that person again seems distant and an act that will not take place from my side.
The road is long, however, the ditches in the road is what can stop us. I just see those ignorant fools as a ditch in the road that try to corrupt and sabotage my road. Let me tell you one thing, I have an attitude when it comes to things like this. I hate it when people just pretend to care...yeah right...save it for someone that will believe it! If you hurt me and I say I do not want to talk to you...let me make one thing clear. My attitude is simple...I am dead to you and you do not exist in my world. In fact to sum it up when I think about those people...I say..."F*** 'Em"! I am keeping that outlook. That way, whoever is in my world, I will love them. Those that are not in my world...I will look at you and be like 'Who the f*** are you?!'
Sorry for the swearing and I know my regular readers will not mind...in fact I think you will probably like to see another part of my personality! Yes, I have a multi-faceted personality! Thanks for reading and if it hurts anyone personally, then that must mean you know you have done something wrong to me! If in doubt, talk to me and if I do not reply back to you within 24-48 hours then you might be one of those people!
Take care and lots of love,
Rahul N. Singh
Copyright © Chronicles of a Creative Writer. 2008 Rahul N. Singh. All Rights Reserved.
Hope you are all well and yes, I know this post is up a little early but I am sure you will appreciate that.
I do not really open up much but I can say something that I am deeply hurt after some events yesterday. After reading some words (not on the blog) and realising what they meant, caused me distress, pain, discomfort and anger. For the first time, I had wished that I had the ability to hate someone.
I can understand now that it is so easy to fall into the trap of hatred. To gather up all that energy to hate someone, it suddenly attacks you and consumes your mind that it is the right way. I had so many questions and answers to why to hate this person was right. But suddenly, I thought you know what...hatred is nothing, pity is worth much more. I pity that person for hurting me because yes, I may be able to forgive, but to look at that person in the eye again and even mention a word to that person again seems distant and an act that will not take place from my side.
The road is long, however, the ditches in the road is what can stop us. I just see those ignorant fools as a ditch in the road that try to corrupt and sabotage my road. Let me tell you one thing, I have an attitude when it comes to things like this. I hate it when people just pretend to care...yeah right...save it for someone that will believe it! If you hurt me and I say I do not want to talk to you...let me make one thing clear. My attitude is simple...I am dead to you and you do not exist in my world. In fact to sum it up when I think about those people...I say..."F*** 'Em"! I am keeping that outlook. That way, whoever is in my world, I will love them. Those that are not in my world...I will look at you and be like 'Who the f*** are you?!'
Sorry for the swearing and I know my regular readers will not mind...in fact I think you will probably like to see another part of my personality! Yes, I have a multi-faceted personality! Thanks for reading and if it hurts anyone personally, then that must mean you know you have done something wrong to me! If in doubt, talk to me and if I do not reply back to you within 24-48 hours then you might be one of those people!
Take care and lots of love,
Rahul N. Singh
Copyright © Chronicles of a Creative Writer. 2008 Rahul N. Singh. All Rights Reserved.
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